I am not sure
whether I have to be happy or sad.
Of course, I am thankful as Allah granted me
this long to live my life.
I’m thinking how
long I’ve wronged Allah and my parent.
I’m thinking my
accumulated SINS.
Even though to
stop this is being dead, but that isn’t right for a Muslim.
Because life is
a gift, because it is a gift (I repeat) and it is given only once, to the
luckiest one.
I should
appreciate that MORE than thinking of ending my life.
However, I still
have to think on THE DAY, where all my acts will be judged.
One of my
ustazah said; the world become important because there is The Judgement Day.
On my birthday,
I pray to Allah
to grant me to live my life as a Muslimah,
To obey Allah,
Rasulullah and my parent,
I pray that
Allah will guide me as He will always do every time,
I pray that
Allah will never take back His gift of Hidayah from me,
I pray that at
least before He “invited” my mum and dad, I will be given the chance to make
them happy. Because even if I own the world, I will never pay the right value
for every single thing they have done for me!
Below, I shared
the text message that I sent to my parent on my birthday.
Assalamualaikum,
It’s true that day by
day we are getting older and somehow the feeling is at the highest point when
it reaches the birthday. Well, thank you very mum and dad, for everything you’ve
given me, till l manage to be this old, this big and doing what I am doing now.
I am sorry, because I know I’ve hurt both of you a lot before I’ve become this
old. Thank you very much, I am nothing without both of you. I cannot pay the
price of 23 years of your efforts. Today, I’ve become a happy 23years-old-girl;
born from the love of my mum and dad! Thank you! =)
=) Birthday Girl
– Wohlstand
12 April 2012
